Some days are rough.

Some days I want to call you just to chat like we used to.

Some days I just need a hug from you and to hear you say I love you.

Some days a little something reminds me of a memory and I am reminded of the hole left by your loss.

Some days these little memories make me smile and allow me to remember your life.

Some days are good.

Some days are better.

Some days I want you to bicker with me over wedding plans, telling me what I should be doing.

Some days something happens and I just want you to guide me in the right direction. 

Some days I wonder what you think of how I've grown in the past 3 years. Are you proud?

Some days are painful.

Some days I think about the relationship you and Brian would have been able to have. You always loved him.

Some days I cry over everything you will miss in our lives. Especially all the babies.

Some days the family just doesn't understand leaving behind Harmony. Moving on from where you belonged.

Some days I remember you are with grammy and pop pop and I know that's your place now. 

BUT.

Every day I miss you, Mom.

Things are Getting Crazyyyy.

With wedding planning that is. We are (practically) 

officially 6 months away from the big day!!
Weird to think I will be *hopefully* calm about the fact that tomorrow night is rehearsal then comes the big day in just 6 short months. Half a year. Minuscule amount of time really.

We are in the midst of the crazy, "we are behind" planning that it just might be starting to make my head spin. And by head spin I mean glasses of wine before I tackle my wedding to do list. 

And here is why. We are currently 'behind' on a few details.

-DJ..kind of a big one. I need to get my groove on properly
-Save the Dates. should have been out weeks ago. or months. Perhaps tomorrow?
-Hair/Makeup...have an appointment next week so hopefully making a decision soon!
-Officiant...we do kind of want to make this thing legit. Have contacted a few just have to take the next step
-Flowers....paint me a pretty bouquet. Have ideas floating around in my head.
-Wedding Cake-this has been procrastinated because of the fact that these two kids aren't really cake people. So in reality, it's just about what looks pretty :)


And then comes the task list for next month...which then makes 5 months...then 4 months...then oh man!


HERE. WE. GO.

Anything I should be doing ASAP that isn't on this list? Let's hope not!

Jam! Christmas Version: Tuesday10

Absolutely my favorite time of the year! So naturally I want to participate in any and all blog link-ups I can for Christmas!

And in the fashion of my Tuesdays...the Tuesday10! And this week it's all about 

your favorite Christmas music.

So let me discuss my favorite Christmas jams. The ones I belt out like I am Mariah Carey and have some semblance of a singing voice. And I will add all the videos. For you guys of course. Not so I can play them continuously...

1. All I want for Christmas is You- Mariah Carey
Don't care what anyone says...will always be a Christmas favorite!

2. Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays- N Sync

3. Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree

4. Christmas Wrapping
Don't know why, just love it!

5. Where are you Christmas?- Faith Hill

6. I met an Angel on Christmas Day- Celine Dion

A lot of people don't know this one but it's a good one!

7. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas- Christina Aguilera

8. O Holy Night- Carrie Underwood

9.It's beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas

10. Christmas Shoes
Even though this can easily bring the waterworks...I love it's meaning

And there you have it folks! Please enjoy and have a wonderful, Christmasy day :)

My Christmas List: Show & Tell Monday

Linking up on this fun Monday with Becky for Show and tell Monday. And I get to show you the 4 things on my Christmas list this year!

So my Christmas list. It's really not legit. Let me explain. I have always been a simple gal. Not really wanting much and it was always hard to answer the question of what I wanted for Christmas. 

Well, except for when I was a little girl. Going through that toy book it WAS NOT hard to find something that I could put on that list for Santa.

But this year? Honestly, all I actually want is anything that could help with the wedding or wedding planning. But if a gal can dream....this is what I would want in my wildest dreams.

1. A New TV that is bigger than the teeny 25 in. we have in our living room. Yes, it's sad. Yes, our friends always comment on just how small it is. We get it. We struggle to see it sometimes too.

2. If you haven't noticed from my tweets or my obsession with my iPod Touch...I really want an iPhone. I am so over being in the world of the Blackberry. It's been ok to me but it is more than enough time to move on.

3. Yes, folks. I want a Kinect. I look at the Xbox sitting in my living room everyday and I would like to enjoy it as much as Brian does. I want to dance like a fool on those commercials. And I also want the Zumba to go along with it. Get in wedding shape the fun way.

4. How old am I? A baker's rack is indeed on Christmas list. Or any rack or anything that I can organize with. Because anyone that has been to our apartment can absolutely agree with this. I stink at organizing and need as many things as I can get to help out with it.

Well, that's my good ole' Christmas list for the year that I don't expect anything from. We are on a budget, people. But if Santa could just answer one...it might be the biggest one on the list ;)