What's the reason?

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

"Everything happens for a reason"

Things fall apart so better things can fall in place, etc., etc.

These quotes are pretty much things I firmly believe in...for the most part. All my life I have been through difficult things that when I look back I say oh yes that's why it happened. It makes sense. 

But the one time that trips me up is losing my mom. There is no reason to this. Why can't my mom be here for the next 20 years of my life? Why couldn't she see me graduate college? Why won't she be here when I move into my new apartment?

I don't think there will ever be a reason for this part of my life. I have become a stronger person, yes. But I don't see how losing my mom can make that the reason. She was a strong person. I learned from her. She was my rock. 

This is something that has been affecting me lately because of the big move. I am leaving my only home to start over in a new place and all I want to do is stand her and stomp my feet like a little child because it's not fair I can't fight with my mom over which way to put my curtains. 

I will get through this just something I needed to talk about and get my feelings out there. 

“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be”

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