Sunday, July 25, 2010

What do you do when you don't know where you'll end up?


That's my question now. I am moving out of my house slowly but surely it is coming. Yet I have no idea where I am going.

Everyone thinks it is so easy to be able to move anywhere I want but alas easy is so far from the word. I am octupus like at the moment. Someone is telling me move here, another is saying to move there but then there is the possiblity of staying around here and keeping the job I have. Granted not the most excellent job but still a paycheck every 2 weeks.

So what do I do? Move to the one place and upset one person or move to the other and upset someone else or just up and leave the country? Leave the country, hmmm. Just kiddingggg. Not an option. At least right now. But everyday it seems more and more appealing.

The thought of starting fresh in a brand new place is exciting and scary. But I do feel like I would enjoy that. If only that new place had a job waiting for me and included a boyfriend who wanted to do that.

Such is life I suppose. These are the moments I miss my mom the most. The moments I am freaking out and want to say ahhhh Mom what do I do?! And she sits there and says I don't know Krista. Why don't you (fill in the blanks)? I then say no I can't do that because (fill in the blanks) Such it would go until my Mom would talk me through it and see my pros and cons and lead me to my decision. That is what we did. I want that back. These decisions are too much to make on my own. Big girl or not. I want my Mom's help.

As more and more boxes are packed and offers are being made on the house, my reality is coming true. And I can't seem to make the decision that is going to change my life in one way or another. 

This is the first time I look to the future and it is all jumbled. I don't know where I will be in a month or with who. Or if I will even have the same job or another job. And that is the scariest part. The unknown. A black abyss of wonder. Lily is there.

She has to be I take her where I go. Family is there the most they have been the past year. I hope friends are there but friendships alter and change through life that wherever I go the question is, will they survive? Brian is there. Hopefully he follows me where I go..he better or else :) 

Life isn't on hold by any means. It's weighing on my shoulders so how could I forget it's there? Just want my steady feet and ground back. But somehow I think that will now take a long while.


-I've learned never to be surprised if what must inevitably happen happens right now. ~Robert Brault
Saturday, July 24, 2010

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After a night of tossing and turning and just a horrible sleep, I came across the article titled, "rest easy, Your Guide to Better Sleep."

It gives some very helpful tips on how we all can get better rest. Some I can see doing. Others are questionable.  But first let's throw some statistics your way about this sleep thing.

A recent survey by the National Sleep Foundation found that on average people sleep one and a half hours less per night than they did a century ago. While most of those in the poll said they feel best if they've had at least eight hours of sleep each night, the number reporting actually getting eight or more hours of sleep per night fell from 38 percent in 2001 to 28 percent in 2008.

That raises a big hmmm. I'm a thinker so when I read this I automatically try to link it to something and think of a reason why. Naturally it occurs to me why after reading down further in the article. 

A suggestion for better sleep: 

Keep a notebook and writing utensil next to the bed. Use them to clear racing thoughts, calm the mind and promote peaceful sleep.--BINGO!

---People are sleeping less because they are worried more now than they were back in 2001. Many people are being laid off and finances are going down the tube. So I'm sure many people go to bed thinking of their credit cards, bills and possibly losing their job in the near future. 


Another suggestion: 

Remove stimulants (television, stereo, computer, bright lights) from your sleeping area. Keep the bedroom clear from clutter -- remove any unnecessary furniture, piles of clothes, papers and books so things are kept out of sight and the space looks and feels calm and simple.

---Hasn't it been said people have liked to continue to live in fantasy during the economic recession because it lets them escape from their own lives? So could this be reason number two of the decline in sleep because people are watching more television at night thinking it will help them forget their problems before bed? Perhaps.


Or maybe you could:

Shut down your computer and turn off your cell phone and television 30 minutes prior to sleep. Create an environment that is quiet and calm.

---Blackberries anyone? They constantly are attached to you and have you connected 24/7. Until that last email is sent or Facebook status update is sent is the time people put it down for the night. Usually a minute, not more, before their heads hit the pillow. I am guilty of this same thing. I also enjoy falling asleep to my TV. Oops.


Bottom line is, WE NEED SLEEP! And I need it. I love sleep. Aside from turning off the television completely, I might step away from the computer earlier tonight and let my thoughts stop going. See if I can stop the tossing and turning. 

-It is a common experience that a problem difficult at night is resolved in the morning after the committee of sleep has worked on it. ~John Steinbeck
Thursday, July 22, 2010

Quick catch up..


In some pictures!

Me soo happy on the Fourth of July picnic!

Sister hitting the hard stuff


 Cousins <3 


Pretties. Clearly alcohol was included.




And laughs were had.

All in all a successful night with family and friends. I know my mom was proud of us for putting it all together. 
Saturday, July 3, 2010

Let Today be Your Independence Day


I came across this blog entry and I just need to share because it is always good to remember you are you and you can be whoever you want to be. Enjoy!